A Is for Ansel

I don’t know if it’s because I myself look like I’m still in high school (although now I might have graduated to a freshman or sophomore in college), but I always tend to get crushes on male celebs that are a minimum of 5 years younger than me.  We all know how I feel about Josh Hutcherson.

With the release this year of not one but TWO movies based on young adult novels, I have been introduced to my new cougar crush.

His name is Ansel Elgort.

Hey girl. I'll be the Gus to your Hazel.

Hey girl. I’ll be the Gus to your Hazel.

While he plays Caleb in “Divergent“,  his breakout role is as Augustus “Gus” Waters in “The Fault In Our Stars“.  If you have the unfortunate habit of not reading, “The Fault In Our Stars” is a YA (library lingo for “young adult”) novel by John Green that is about how you can find love in the least likely of places…aka a cancer support group.  This book is great (although not as tear inducing as some would lead you to believe…or maybe I just don’t know how to have feels), and Augustus Waters raises the bar on what sort of high (and false) expectations to have for a boyfriend.

I haven’t seen the movie yet, but I’m sure when I do I’ll have the proper feels because Ansel Elgort is adorable.  I don’t know if I’m going to be able to handle what happens to Augustus knowing that Ansel is playing him.

I mean, look at that face.

Hey girl. I'll spin you around like I do my records. To an EDM beat.

Hey girl. I’ll spin you around like I do my records. To an EDM beat.

I don’t know what it is. I think I just like them quirky (case in point…the bf).

Anyway, Ansel, when you turn 21, call me, okay?



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I’m An Adult Now. I Have Benefits.

To my fellow bloggers: 

Do you ever sit down to blog and think, “It can’t have been that long since I last posted something”, and then realize it’s almost been a month?? Maybe it’s just me.  I know there are blogs that get posted to every day.  I used to be that ambitious.





But now the time has come. 


So how much can change in a month? Oh I don’t know, how about the fact that I moved back to Missouri?

That’s right.

I’m back in Missouri.  I am proud to say that I have accepted a position with the library system that I actually utilized while growing up.  It’s almost like I’ve come full circle librarian-wise.

Oh, and did I mention it was FULL TIME??? WITH BENEFITS???

It’s almost like I’m a full fledged adult.



Ps. Even though he didn’t move with me, the boyfriend and I are still together.  I’ll blog about our situation later.





First of all, can we discuss the term “BAE” for a minute? I’ve heard it thrown around here and there, but I had to look up the actual meaning for it. According to Urban Dictionary, it means “Befoer Anyone Else”. It’s supposed to be a term of endearment, like “I love you BAE”. To me, though, it sounds like somebody got kinda lazy and just left out the second “b” in “babe”. But hey, whatever gives you all the feels, you know?

Anyway, let’s discuss the amazingness and BAE-ness of the Netflix show “Orange Is the New Black”.  If you haven’t seen this show, get on it. It is more than worth the $9 a month fee (or just do the free trial!) If you have, then high-five. Isn’t it amazing? It’s a comedy, a drama, and a social commentary all rolled into one. I will say though that it is a little sad to me that the one show that features the most diverse cast of women is set in a womens’ prison.  I understand that that a womens’ prison is where you will most likely find the most diverse group of women, but that just means that society is kinda sucking right now in the diversity aspect.  But I’ll save that for a later post.

Here’s what makes “Orange Is the New Black” the best show on TV:

It understands great literature.


It understands people make mistakes.


It understands people might make the same mistake more than once.


It understands the importance of education.


It understands the importance of getting someone’s name right.


It understands that women have legitimate feelings. 


It understands the importance of loving yourself.


It understands love. 


Most importantly, it understands the importance of blogging.


“Orange Is the New Black” is based on the best-selling memoir by Piper Kerman, so make sure to check that out too (preferably from your local library)!

Season 1 & 2 of “Orange Is the New Black” is on Netflix. Binge or watch sparingly.

I Can’t Maths, but I Can Music

In regards to my last post, it’s obvious I can’t do math. We are in fact NOT halfway there, because as it was pointed out to me, we have to get through the month of June first. I don’t even really have an excuse as to why I thought we were halfway there, except that I just assumed since we were AT the 6th month, and 6 is half of 12…anyway, I can’t maths.

It's been 6 years since I've had any meaningful math class, so this is not irrelevant to my life.

It’s been 6 years since I’ve had any meaningful math class, so this is not irrelevant to my life.

So I’ve been organizing my music files on my computer, because I get kind of weird when it comes to my music and I like to have things in certain folders and whatnot, and I kinda just wanted to go through and delete the songs I don’t really listen to. This might be the only part of my life that’s organized, but that’s another story.

"My room" = "My Apartment"

“My room” = “My Apartment”

Anyway, I’ve found what I consider to be some gems of songs.  They’re the kind of songs that get lost in the shuffle but when I listen to them I remember how much I like them.

Sidenote: It kind of weirds me out how I can remember lyrics to a song that came out ten years ago but I can’t remember what I ate yesterday. My brain has its priorities I suppose.

Here’s a sampling of my music taste, ranging from middle school (2000) to now. You’ll see that my taste hasn’t evolved much. Please don’t judge.

All Saints-“Never Ever” (technically, this is 1997, when I was 9. I don’t know what I was doing listening to a break up song as a 4th grader, but that’s a thought for another day.)

Conor Maynard-“Marvin’s Room (Drake Cover)”

DJ Sammy-“Heaven”

JoJo-“Too Little, Too Late” (ULTIMATE BREAK-UP SONG OF 2006)

Livvi Franc-“Now I’m That Bitch” (ft. Pitbull) (ULTIMATE “YOU COULD HAVE HAD THIS” SONG OF 2009)

Nikki Williams-“Glowing”

Paradiso Girls-“Patron (Tequila)” (ULTIMATE GET WASTED SONG OF 2010)

Ester Dean-“Drop It Low” (ft. Chris Brown) (ULTIMATE ASS SHAKING SONG OF 2009…AND NOW)

Ella Henderson-“Ghost”

What kind of music do you listen to? Has your music taste evolved since middle school? Sound off in the comments below! I’m always interested in new music :)

Happy Monday!







Oooooh, We’re Halfway There…

…wwwhhhooooaaa! Living on a prayer!

Who can resist a good Bon Jovi reference?

And maybe some "Game of Thrones"

And maybe some “Game of Thrones”.

So tomorrow is June 1st, which means that the year is halfway over! Kinda hard to believe.  Do you ever have that thought of “how did I get here” about your life? If you had asked me growing up if I wanted to be a librarian I probably would have said no. If you had asked me a year and a half ago if I would ever consider moving to Arizona I would have said no. But now here I am, on my way to becoming an “official” librarian in Arizona.  Crazy where life will take you.

Anyway, here’s what I’ve been up to for the past six months: 

I’ve attempted to do an ab-challenge. It did not end well.

This is why.

This is why.

I got accepted into grad school! Starting in August I will be taking online courses via Kent State University, which is (humblebrag here) one of the Top 20 MLS programs in the nation. I am officially on my way to becoming a MASTER LIBRARIAN MUAHAHAHAHAH.

And proud of it!

And proud of it!


I’ve read 32 books. My goal is 100. The best book I’ve read so far this year is “Unwind” by Neal Shusterman. It’s the first book in a YA series about what happens to teens who have been designated to be “unwound” (hint: it’s not good).  It’s an interesting, creepy concept that is totally plausible given the discourse over reproductive rights. I highly recommend it.

Initially this made me think of "The Human Centipede" movie, which you should NOT watch.

I’ve been crafting it up like a Pinterest queen! I made an earring holder


a coin purse


and a collage (which I’ve been doing since high school).



I’m hoping to set up an Etsy shop or online boutique and sell my wares eventually.


Last but not least, I’ve taken A LOT of cat pictures. Here are a few:



So anyway, that’s what I’ve been up to. Life’s been a challenge, but it’s been worth it. Excited to see where the next 6 months take me!

At Least You Tried

I really love this pic that I found on Pinterest:


Lana Del Rey is my spirit guide.

What no one tells you about being a grown up is that trying to do anything is half the battle (trying not to fuck it up is the other half).  Here are some things that I have been “trying” lately:

1) The Scientific 7 Minute Workout


I found this via the boyfriend who found it via StumbleUpon.  I’ve only done this for two days (yesterday and today) but when I woke up this morning I was feeling it. And it’s only 7 minutes! (Ok, for me 10, but I’m working on it).  Anyway, it’s perfect for those of us who are not as inclined to work out or are trying to get back into it.

2) Lettuce in a jar

#nofilter #jk #alilfilter #butnowilt...er?

#nofilter #jk #alilfilter #butnowilt…er?

This is something I found on Pinterest.  The boyfriend and I got some bulk lettuce at a discount food store so now we’re going to eat lettuce for days. I know it’s not the best green you can have, but it’s better than no green, right?

3) Faux Ice Cream

This shit is bananas...no seriously. It's made with bananas.

Again, Pinterest.  I love ice cream and all of its fatty deliciousness.  Unfortunately, the waist line doesn’t agree. So what’s a girl to do? Faux ice cream! (“Faux is a fancy French word for “fake”).  Their recipe used peanut butter and bananas, but I used bananas and cocoa powder because I am a chocolate fiend.  I also added in some milk because my bananas were already frozen so they weren’t blending very well. Lesson learned! There is definitely a banana taste to it, which is alright by me because I fucking love bananas, but if you don’t then you might not want to try it (or just add LOTS of flavoring).

Anyway, that’s what I’ve been up to lately.  What have you been trying? 


You Can Go Your Own Pace

So I have a confession to make.

I did not keep up with the 30 day ab challenge.  I made it through day 8 but then after that I was taking too many “rest” days and then it just kind of escalated into not doing it at all. And by escalated I mean I got lazy.

I know, I know. I’m disappointed in me too.


My problem is that I think about exercising so much that I overthink it and then just don’t even do it. It’s like I’m exhausted from just thinking about it. I also eat shitty (because it’s cheap, but that’s a whole other blog post), and excuse that by saying I’m going to work out, but then I don’t even work out.


After I didn’t exercise for about a week, I started beating myself up about not exercising. And then I really didn’t want to exercise because I was too depressed/lazy.

My mind is an asshole sometimes.

Assholes are usually liars.

Assholes are usually liars.

I’ve come to realize, though, that I spend too much of my time comparing myself to others. Everyone else on Facebook and Instagram are running marathons and losing 50 pounds, and what am I doing with my life?


This is what I’m doing with my life.

So obviously I need to: 1) not spend so much time on Facebook, and 2) remember that, just like in running, life is about pacing yourself. If you can’t do 100 squats in 1 sitting, try to do 100 throughout the day. If you don’t go to grad school right after college, and instead wait 4 years (like I did…and that will be a whole other post as well), then that’s ok too.

Like Fleetwood Mac said, “you can go your own way”.  Just, uh, please don’t hurt anybody while you’re at it.


My Top 10 Running Jams

Well, here are the results after week 1 of the 30 Day Ab Challenge that I started:

Again, please ignore the dirty mirror.

Again, please ignore the dirty mirror.

Not much of a difference, but it’s not until the 2nd or 3rd week you see results, right? And I can feel the results happening when I do the exercises, and that’s what’s important.

Anyways, I’ve mentioned before that I really love to run.  I’m not quite a 5k or marathon runner, but I try to run a minimum of a mile when I do run.  And while I’m running, I have to have some jammin’ beats to listen to.  These are my Top 10 jams to run to:

1) “Fancy” by Iggy Azalea ft. Charli XCX. “You should want a bad bitch like this”. ‘Nuff said.


2) “N***** in Paris” by Kanye West & Jay-Z.  The beats get me every time.


3) “Sexy to Me” by JoJo.  “I don’t need nobody cuz I’m sexy to me”.  The grammar is a lil off but the message is spot on.


4) “Vegas Girl” by Conor Maynard. With his voice,  I’d be his Vegas girl in a minute.


5) “The Way You Love Me” by Keri Hilson ft. Rick Ross.  Her body in this video is BANGIN, which is appropriate since that what the song is about…


6) “The Boys” by Nicki Minaj ft. Cassie. I pretty much love anything Nicki Minaj.


7) “Do It Like a Dude” by Jessie J.  The song starts out with “Stomp, stomp, I’ve arrived” so it’s kinda hard to quit after that.


8) “Toxic” by Britney Spears. Can’t have a running playlist without Brit on there.


9) “Talk That Talk” by Rihanna ft. Jay-Z.  Must also have some RiRi.


10) “Run the World (Girls)” by Beyonce. Because duh.


These songs always pump me up for my run and help me enjoy it more.  I look forward to running because I love listening to these songs.  What songs get you pumped up for running/working out?

I Abs-olutely Want a Bikini Body

So the other day (April 1st to be exact) I started an ab challenge because 1) it’s always bikini season here in Arizona (damn you desert climate!) and 2) I have no abs.

Proof. My abs are in there somewhere.

My abs are in there somewhere. And please ignore the dirty mirror. 

I got the ab challenge from Pinterest, the mecca of all things fitness related.  I’ll post weekly updates to see if there’s any improvement. This will also hold me accountable to actually DO the challenge because I have a tendency to quit these things half-way through.  This is something I am doing alongside running (my favorite form of exercise).


What fitness challenges have you accomplished? What’s your favorite form of exercise?


Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and not liked what you saw? Have you ever had the thought “why am I so ugly”?

I have. 

For the past six months, I have not felt the greatest about myself. It’s part of the reason why I haven’t been blogging as frequently as I used to. I’ve just been feeling meh. The blog is “vibrant musings” not “meh musings“.

Me the past 6 months

Me the past 6 months

Anyway, even though I have a very loving boyfriend, great family and friends, and a not so bad life, I just couldn’t get over my funk. I just knew that I would feel better about myself if I thought that I looked better.


She has a point.

So first off, I’ve started running again. It’s so empowering to know what my body is capable of. I’m not quite up to the running standard that I had going before I moved to Arizona, but I’m getting there.  This song helps.

But even with running and excercizing, I knew I wouldn’t feel 100% unless I did something about my hair. I have been tolerating my natural born, light brown, fine, thin hair for the last few months, but the time has come for me to get the hair style that I am truly meant to have.

So I have gone from this:


To this:


In my heart, I know I’m meant to be a red head. I know I’m meant to have short hair. I now feel like my true self. I still have some work to do on my body (mainly excersizing more and eating better), but with this new look I have a pep in my step and am more motivated to work on those things.

So if you have ever felt unpretty, or are feeling unpretty right now, you’re not alone. And I know that a million people could tell you you’re gorgeous and you still might not believe them. But you ARE beautiful. And if you need to cut your hair, tattoo your body, or do whatever to make yourself feel that way, then do it.

However you do you, it’s beautiful.